Experience is the best teacher or so they say. But do they tell you about how something that happens for less than a minute can change you negatively?
A friend once confided in me about something she went through that completely changed her from the happy-go-lucky person she was to someone with a distorted view of the world. We were in the middle of a conversation, she looked at me and told me she used to be like me, carefree and optimistic, till shit happened.
Less than 2 months later and I think I understand her completely. I recently went through something I don’t understand. I can’t explain it because I don’t even know how to put the words together to make a sensible statement.
I don’t think I’m the same person I used to be and I’m not sure I can go back to being that cheerful and upbeat person. Maybe I’m overreacting, or maybe not.
I’m scared, I don’t want to be a gloomy person. This past year, I’ve been trying to not let my emotions control me. I’m learning how to not let circumstances and happenings dictate how I behave/react/take decisions. I can only hope I get out of this sane.
Getting an apartment in Lagos is so s-t-r-e-s-s-f-u-l ahhhh! I’ve always lived on the mainland, but I’ve been on the Island for about a year now. When I decided to get a place, I wanted Mainland because Island and flood be like 5 & 6. This past weekend I went to the Mainland and I knew I couldn’t live there anymore. After spending like 15/20 minutes at the b/stop this morning, I had to use Taxify to work. 3000k gone like that, how much is my salary that I’ll be doing that every morning? Island is obvs more expensive in every way than the Mainland, but I don’t think I mind. I’m yet to go and inspect houses physically, I’ve just been checking tolet.ng (or whatever they call themselves these days) and calling agents. Maybe next weekend, I’ll start inspecting the houses, wish me luck please.